This holiday is a good 1, many things got clearer and lighter, kosen life was making everything go numb and dull. It'll be back soon though, at least the brain is refreshed and this holiday provided me with a new goal, a 1 which I'm really serious about, nothing to do with academics but finally I've found something I really want to do and it's a secret. (You can try asking and i might tell) I think it's since secondary school that I've found a goal but it's a fucking lot harder but I'll just keep striving for it, I just have to.