Visits

The days which i don't have any exam is the days i go to Penang, visiting my brother at the Gleneagles Medical Centre. The 3 hours journey to and fro sucked my time of studies. Therefore, there might be a little sloppiness in my exam this time. It matters yet doesn't matter somehow. If i visit, i'll be able to relax a little but probably too much. If i don't visit, i'll be insupportive of my own family member and not knowing my brother's progress. Since this week is made up of 3 rather very important subjects, i would say, i'll be able to save 2 and 1 will be sacrificed, although i was hoping very much not to sacrifice it. Well, i guess that's what they say drastic time needs drastic measure (hopefully this drastic measure is not costly).

Hmm, his progress is rather slow according to the doctor. The picture of the intestines were interesting though, full of blood and looks very slimy, like a crippled red colour snake in a human's body. My mum said it was "geli ka si (i don't know the correct word to replace geli, so i'll put it this way, eeyer~ see also can vomit ah)" but it looks just fine to me. If i'm touching that with my bare hand, i would agree with her or maybe i'll enjoy squeezing it and pull it since it's elastic. That's gonna be a totally different case, imagine biting or play baseball with it, haha.

During the free time, sometimes it makes me wonder about after SPM. I mean what am i going to after that. Since a few years ago, friends were asking in normal conversations and i'll always say "don't know" since i wasn't giving a single thought on it. In fact, the biggest factor of not being able to think 1 is that i don't even know my interest, academic wise. I believe i'm versatile though. I don't like any subjects including PE nor recess. So, what do i like actually? Seems like i actually dislike anything. Not really dislike, i mean i'm fine with any subject. There's nothing to drive me to any direction either. I mean cases like some robbers kill my family members and i decide to be a police. My family members being sick to death which motivates me to be a doctor or those kinds. I dislike a lot of things though, deforestation, Malaysia's politics, injustice or anything that even a small kid would know either it's right or wrong. Guess i'm still a small kid still ei, living in my own world with little of those things happening around me. Although lies and short term dissatisfactions happen, betrayal and those above it doesn't happen to me, still in the lucky world of mine. (got off tracked again.... swt)

Although i blog long~~ posts like 1 sausage dog in the internet, that's not gonna make a good writer since i totally don't read at all. If i have started reading since young, 100% i would have been a professor in English. Given the early exposure to English by speaking it since young and going for my mum's tuition centre since the age of 6 or 7 till my form 2 or 3 of Singapore English standard, if i had taken it seriously, no doubt i would be one of the best in Malaysia. Sadly, i stopped reading since standard 3 or so, so the progress was very slow after that. Anyway, writing isn't my interest, so skip it, lol. I shall take the easy way out for now, which is i'll decide later (again), lol. Surely i'm not going to take law, hahaha, too many laws these days. Hammurabi's law is the easiest. An eye for an eye. Maybe i'll ask my friends and tag along with them in their tertiary studies, (low chance though) haha.

(oi, stop blogging and go sleep la, stupid. still can afford to talk so much rubbish ah, dumb ass)